I miss listening to the sounds of Lifehouse.Have the sudden urge to hear them.If only i have more storage spaces in my MP3.
I'll be jobless till dunno when.I'm always lzay to flip thru the papers and lazier to go for intvs and doing the same thing over and over again.The most irritating to do is to fill up the application forms.Dunno how many forms i've filled.But no pain,no gain.I was given a job by my member but the place is like a bit run down and there seemed to be a lot of aunties.it will be boring.That's for sure.At times,i see myself working like in a metroplitan state,u know like those big companies in Raffles or whatsoever.Where evrything is new,big and fresh.And what u wear to work suites the place.Nice colleagues,also.Well,my search still continues..
I dunno if i ever treat my friends like dirt.It's like they said i only come to them when i really need them.I have other friends who have their own life and we only meet up/contact when we can.And i dunno why its like a REAL BIG FUSS!Cmon,ppl have their own life also.If you are a true friend,u won't dig up his/her flaws.Instead,u try to understand them.I hardly meet my girlfriends and the most saddest thing is that i dun even have a bestfriend.I'd only have close friends that i can count on.It's said that they're talking behind my back.I can't shut ppl's mouth.But if they think i'd ever treated them like dirt,I'm sorry but i never had the intention.Cos they are what i call true friends.Friends that i have known since i was 13.Probably they dun know my real situation.Situations in life that i can't escape.I can always make new friends,but the old ones are the best.
I'd feel happier now that i'm not really working.I have more time with my family.And i'm closer to mum and dad now.Mom has given in alot to me for the past few weeks/months.All along that holiday trip,she followed to all my "wants".And she hasnt been nagging about my 'coming-home-late'.But i feel a bit pitiful for her.I mean like how long more is she gonna work.But the mom that i knew,is a strong one though she's emotional.
I realised that i will turn 21 in 6 months.6 months.Omg.What can i achieve by 21?

All the men,expenisve cars and money don't amount to you.........




It's us that cause hurt to the ones we really love without knowing.
And its the ones that we really love doesnt know how much we love them.
We may think we are always right but the fact we arent.
We maybe selfish to ones we love without knowing but hurting them more instead.
We always want them to be with us 24-7 without knwing they have their own life.




I've decided to invest more to make myself look good.that means more money will be spent.I've been spending more on these kind of things.I managed to psycho myself to buy a hair serum.I still have my fake curls after snipping off those split ends and drying curls.I feel so much lighter!and most importantly,i look younger now!hee.That hairdresser seemed angry when i told her i couldnt be bothered to set my hair each morning.But what she said is true..We cant be lazy.We want to look good but we are plain lazy to work for it.Anyway i just went for a manicure session today.Pretty good job and i love my nail colour.Dark red.Gothic.I like...and it costs 10 bucks.On top of that i bought a topcoat specially for after-manicure that prevents the nail colour fom being"destroyed".You know when you do work after the manicure and you suddenly hit something and will go..ohhh shhittt!and its a heartache to see that your beautiful nails are damaged.The topcoat is damn good.I didnt even think twice about the cost of it($32).
Next up,i wanna invest on M.A.C.Yes.I've tried their make-up.Its really worth the money.Their powder costs 50 bucks but it gives u a good coverage.
It's all beauty theraphy.

I'll be leaving my current company soon.End of the month.
I tot of trying to teach.I dont know if i shud go 4 the montessori intv.The thing is that its at Fort road.A bit far for me.Straits Times will be my buddy for now.back to basics-searching for jobs again.

I've been dreaming of japan lately and i wanna go for a holiday!Doesnt have to be japan though.
KL will be just fine.I'd feel like following him to Sepang.i know he wants to race.Or maybe he go sepang and i'll drop off @ KL and shop by myself.

Something to share.I didnt know what TLC means till this member told me.Tender,Loving,Care.
So next time i'll go,"hey i need some TLC!"




Having lack of rest and not taking my medication resulted in an another day of mc.For this week alone,i have had 3 days mc.Last mon and tues i was down with a fever.surprisingly the doc gave me 2 days mc.so unbelievable!and today the starting of ramadhan,i'm down with it again.Another MC.I hate to fall sick but its 'beneficial' to a certain point of time.
Right now,i'm drooling for that strawberry dip from CHOCZ i had last night.The strawberry is not only sweet but damn juicy and the choc is ''slurrrrrpppppppppppppppppppppp!!!'' Both me and my bf went crazy over sweet stuffs yest.Prolly cos wanna treat ourselves before the fasting!
His choc muffin looked like as if it's gonna erupt.

Ramadhan is here.And that means,time to gather my friends and break fast together.




Cuaca betul2 mainkan perasaan aku smlm..The weather looked so fine yest.Except that it was cloudy.I was hoping that it wont rain.I was already at sentosa and gonna get changed when it started to rain.Total disappointment.It became heavy that we didnt take the rides.But ended up we still managed to take the rides and relax at the beach.I love the Luge Ride.I should bring my gfs there..Once a while we go have more fun!to me its quite cheap.For 8 bucks you get the luge ride and the chairlift ride.Awesome.The island was quite packed yest.Thanks for bringing me there despite your not-feeling-so-well and having to wake up early.

You looked super-good in that new "skimmer shorts" tau tak =)

I think i need to get new set of make-up stuffs.My foundation is totally gone.A new pencil eye-liner.Since Fazlee joined us,i managed to get some beauty tricks from him.So much of being a make-up artist.Biase lah,org2 lembut.Hee..But he's nice.talking to him is like engaging a conversation with makcik2..He even told me to go for this eyelash treatment where they will add more eyelashes to your current one and make it look curlier and thicker.And its not cheap hor!he even told me that he went for permanent hair removal using laser and he said its damn painful.He only went for one session.if i'm not wrong its 300 bucks per session.

i have yet to try his tips and tricks on "doing' smoky eyes..U guys might think that smoky eyes are so yesterday.Well i hardly use make up though my job requires me to.And trying something new always takes time for me.I dont quite like to use make-up.My face feels lighter and i dont have to get worried about anything like smudges or whatsoever.Further more i am lazy to clean my face after using make-up.I'm not the type to invest so much on make-up.I'd rather invest on shoes and bags.Ahh...I like.And if my bf nags at me for buying new heels,i'm gonna do the same thing.9 skate shoes(think so.or 10) in a shoe closet?enough said.

My colleagues and i were talking about hantaran nowadays..Cos he doesnt really know how's the pricing now..And he got shocked.Hee..Well,i'm certainly not surprised if it's gonna rise till $20,000 in time to come.
I'm starting to feel a lil panic.cos i havent been saving up.Saving up doesnt mean u're gonna get married!!!Rid's 'playful' words with his parents hit him.Guess so.His mom said you must have $25,000 to marry someone's daughter.And his dad shouted from behhind,"And i'm not gonna spend a single cent on it!!"..It's kinda funny.Cos i can predict how his father acted and sounded like and by the way Rid did his re-enacment. Both father and son likes to play around.Hahah..

Another monday is here.Back to work and him back in camp.Another week of phone calls and mesasages only.







The battle of the sexes is here again.I fucking hate his attitude.Immature at times.Infact most of the times.Best of all,treating women like men.Cmon,its so yesterday.One thing's for sure,i wont be close with him ever again.Just a normal friend.Havent been close to him recently.Maybe its a good thing.We fought like as if we are as a pair.Nonsense.And i dont like it if my bf thinks that way.I know how he feels and thats why i'm not gonna be close with him anymore.He thinks that he's the only one tired after work.i'm bloody makin the effort to get everyone to join us and hang out together after WORK.Whatever it is,i've done my part by saying.."Ah Buto ah,tanak sudah..".Cheers!

Two weeks more and i can finally breathe.i'm gonna attend a parade and watch him pass out together with his parents.And that means,one day work and two days off.But to be frank i am super-used of not meeting him for 5-6 days straight..Da biasa dah..

Weather looks gloomy today but too bad i'll be going to work soon.Cuaca sekarang tak tentu..suke main2kan perasaan aku..Cheh!
Hopefully my performance appraisal runs smoothly today.I'm feelin a lil nervous.

Work has been fun.i'm laughing most of the time.We will all go crazy at work.Especially me hazrul and linde.Yeay!stress-buster!




I still get my belated presents for my belated bdae.Recently,i got a box of ferrero choc,a body shop perfume and this cute bear from Thaqif.Haa..How sweet.The first thing that came to my mind when he told there was something for me,I was shocked and of course touched.Cos guys are not good at buying things for gfs.Dont u guys agree?It depends.He told me he didnt know whether i would like it.Well i do appreciate it.Thanks to ALL who gave me presents.I'm still waiting for someone to give me Ridhwannnnnnnnn...!!!!where's mine?????????
I managed to have some social life recently.Managed to meet my buddies and hang around.Things havent change.Guess so.

Anyway,was thinking of going holiday at the end of the year.Somewhere near.Tot of Bali or pulau redang.Bintan's not bad afterall.

I'm back at PPW.The members there are picking up so that means busier.And i've got my own tasks to do.Like those weekly report thingy.Sigh.

Last night at work,it turned out to be that there were 4 ladies at the front desk.My 2 managers and my other colleague and me.And we were talking about men.
They were like "Forget relationships!" What for have a bf?" "Date diff men everyday but dont screw!"
I was like what the hell!AHhhah.Whatever it is,all of them got punk'd before..hahah!Women vs Men.
I have got nothing to say about it last night.Was just smiling and listening to their angst.
Poor women.

I'm just hoping this sat will be a beautiful and a memorable one again after so many months.

*ain't no other*